THE MEANING OF THE GOSPEL

 

 

 

People all are born whole, perfect, complete, but in the course of their upbringing and acculturation they’re halved.

A: every half needs an other half to become whole again and attracted to each other by Eros (libido) they are looking for their better half, calling it love, but it is selfish love. They’re clinging together in a suffocating hold, preventing each other from changing.

C: If (1) changes, they suit no longer to each other and separate.  

 

D: (2) Finds a new partner (4), resembling the former partner and history repeats itself. They will stay together until one of them changes again.

D: The changed one (1) finds a new partner too, different from the former one, but again they from a new suffocating whole and there also history repeats itself.

 

(1) Changes again and they separate too. And then (1) realizes every relationship in this world being based on mutual dependency, maintained by compromises, give and take, selfish love, an artificial ‘we’, talking in terms of possession about “my” wife, “my” husband and “my” children. needing each other and a mutual imprisonment and constraint and that it has nothing to do with disinterested love.

Finally he/she takes the way home, back to where he/she came from, back to simplicity and wholeness, for only two whole people can love each other disinterestedly.

That’s the meaning of the Gospel of Thomas

 

I'LL FIND MY WAY HOME (Jon & Vangelis)

You ask me where to begin
Am I so lost in my sin
You ask me where did I fall
I'll say I can't tell you when
But if my spirit is lost
How will I find what is near
Don't question I'm not alone
Somehow I'll find my way home

My sun shall rise in the east
So shall my heart be at peace
And if you're asking me when
I'll say it starts at the end
You know your will to be free
Is matched with love secretly
And talk will alter your prayer
Somehow you'll find you are there.

Your friend is close by your side
And speaks in far ancient tongue
A seasons wish will come true
All seasons begin with you

 

One world we all come from
One world we melt into one

Just hold my hand and we're there
Somehow we're going somewhere
Somehow we're going somewhere

You ask me where to begin
Am I so lost in my sin
You ask me where did I fall
I'll say I can't tell you when
But if my spirit is strong
I know it can't be long
No questions I'm not alone
Somehow I'll find my way home
Somehow I'll find my way home
Somehow I'll find my way home
Somehow I'll find my way home

 

 

"Here we are at the threshold.

This is the most important moment of your lives.

You have to know that here your most cherished

wish will come true.

The most sincere one.

The one reached through suffering."

(from the movie STALKER by Andrej Tarkovsky)

 

 

 

 

SøREN KIERKEGAARD

 

From: ENTEN-ELLER, OR-OR

 

Never become involved in marriage. Married people pledge love for each other throughout eternity. Well, now, that is easy enough but does not mean very much, for if one is finished with time one is probably finished with eternity. If, instead of saying "throughout eternity," the couple would say "until Easter, until next May Day," then what they say would make some sense, for then they would be saying something and also something they perhaps could carry out. What happens in marriage? First, one of them detects after a short time that something is wrong, and then the other one complains and screams: Faithlessness! Faithlessness! After a while, the other one comes to the same conclusion and a state of neutrality is inaugurated through a balancing of accounts by mutual faithlessness, to their common satisfaction and gratification. But it is too late now, anyway, because a divorce involves all kinds of huge problems.

 

Since marriage is like that, it is not strange that attempts are made in many ways to shore it up with moral props. If a man wants to be separated from his wife, the cry goes up: He is a mean fellow, a scoundrel, etc. How ridiculous, and what an indirect assault upon marriage! Either marriage has intrinsic reality, and then he is adequately punished by losing it, or it has no reality, and then it is unreasonable to vilify him because he is wiser than others. If someone became weary of his money and threw it out the window, no one would say he is a mean fellow, for either money has reality, and then he is adequately punished by not having it anymore, or it has no reality, and then, of course, he is indeed wise.

 

One must always guard against contracting a life relationship by which one can become many. That is why even friendship is dangerous, marriage even more so. They do say that marriage partners become one, but this is very obscure and mysterious talk. If an individual is many, he has lost his freedom and cannot order his riding boots when he wishes, cannot knock about according to whim. If he has a wife, it is difficult; if he has a wife and perhaps children, it is formidable; if he has a wife and children, it is impossible. Admittedly, there is the example of a gypsy woman who carried her husband on her back throughout life, but for one thing this is a great rarity and, for another, it is very tiring in the long run--for the husband. Moreover, through marriage one falls into a very deadly continuity with custom, and custom is like the wind and weather, something completely indeterminable. To the best of my knowledge, it is the custom in Japan for the husbands also to be confined during childbirth. Perhaps the time is coming when Europe will import the customs of foreign lands.

 

Even friendship is dangerous; marriage is still more dangerous, for the woman is and will be the man's ruination as soon as he contracts a continuing relationship with her. Take a young man, spirited as an Arabian horse; let him marry and he is lost. At the outset, the woman is proud, then she is weak, then she swoons, then he swoons, then the whole family swoons. A woman's love is only pretense and weakness. (note: Everywhere you can replace “woman” by “man” and reverse, it’s all the same – transl.)

 

Just because one does not become involved in marriage, one's life need not for that reason be devoid of the erotic. The erotic, too, ought to have infinity--but a poetic infinity that can just as well be limited to one hour as to a month. When two people fall in love with each other and sense that they are destined for each other, it is a question of having the courage to break it off, for by continuing there is only everything to lose, nothing to gain. It seems to be a paradox, and indeed it is, for the feelings, not for the understanding. In this domain it is primarily a matter of being able to use moods; if a person can do that, an inexhaustible variation of combinations can be achieved.

 

 

You can begin a new life.

Only see things afresh as you used to see them.

In this consists the new life

 

Marcus Aurelius Antoninus Augustus

(called "the Wise")

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